[a terror musical]

I Spent All This Time Going to Shows and All I Got Was Some Life Lessons (This Piece is a Thank You Note Long Overdue)

Wed, 22 May 2013 22:22:59 -0400

The power of music doesn’t lie within its catchy beats and danceability, but rather within its ability to move its listeners in a deeper sense. For my generation, we experienced a little wave of pop punk that specialized in tongue-in-cheek lyrics and heavy guitar and drum combinations. And I think for many of us, it was those songs that got us through some really bad shit, either because we could relate to what the musicians were singing or because being in a pit and working out that aggression, anxiety or sadness was therapeutic.

For me, there’s been one band that has gotten me through the worst situations life has thrown me—-abuse, starting college, and heartbreak. That same band has been around for some of the most joyous moments—-I remember going to see them at Blossom one summer and being stuck in bumper-to-bumper traffic on the freeway so we got out and blew bubbles. The band is Fall Out Boy and here’s ten things they’ve taught me:

“My words are my faith.”

At the end of the day, all you have is your words; the things you believe in and for which you stand. Be good on your words. Don’t go back on promises you make and don’t make promises you can’t keep. Believe in what you say and live by your words.

“You are what you love, not who loves you.”

This means so many different things. It makes me think about family, which perhaps doesn’t always understand the choices made by an individual. It makes me think about relationships that fail. When you’re dealing with that, it’s comforting to know that who you are isn’t dependent on another person’s perspective of you. You are comprised of all the things you love—-be those things avocados and writing and going to shows or accounting and cashews and history. It doesn’t matter. Love what you love. Embrace those things that make you you.

“I don’t just want to be a footnote in someone else’s happiness.”

There was a point this year where I was willing to give up my path, my plans, and my self to fit into someone else’s plan—-and I’m sure I’m not the first person to be willing to settle for happiness. Happiness isn’t something that you should have to settle for. Really, you should be living the life that brings you joy so that your happiness is not dependent on another person. That’s a lot of pressure to put on them and you’re just setting yourself up to fail that way. So, do what you love. Be unapologetic about your passions. If you find someone along your path that you can share happiness with, cool. If not, you’ve got enough happiness on your own to embrace that independence.

“There’s a world outside of my front door that gets off on being down.”

How often do we find ourselves focusing on the negative? How often is the news focused around the bad and we forget to celebrate the good things that happen every day? Can you imagine the way the world we lived in would look and feel if we shifted perspective? Be an agent for positivity and light. One by one, we can change the world that way.

“You can only blame your problems on the world for so long.”

Yeah, there’s some bad out there in the world. Yeah, sometimes it seems like you’re getting an extra huge heaping of it. You might be, but all your problems cannot be scapegoated off to someone or something else. Take ownership for your actions and make the best of your situation. Take time out to realize that there are others who are experiencing worse situations than you. Be more compassionate.

“Some secrets weren’t meant to be told.”

I first heard this in high school. What a fitting line, right? Trustworthiness seems to get trumped daily by the spread of gossip. I mean, hell, look at all these tabloids with celebrity gossip. Really, does any of that matter? Do we need to know every minute detail of a person’s life? No. Respect each other enough to be trustworthy. Be the friend your friends can confide in.

“Sing, until your lungs give out.”

When it gets bad, keep going. When life throws you challenges, tackle them. Do not give up. Fight for what you believe in. Fight for yourself. Believe in yourself.

“Sometimes before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger, the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger.”

As a person who has battled anxiety and depression for years, these lyrics really ring true. The first time I heard this song, I cried. My boyfriend had just broken up with me and this album became the only thing that could keep me moving. I guess the point is, sometimes people fail us. Probably because sometimes, we expect things from people that are unrealistic. But more importantly, it will get better. The darkness will diminish and my God, you will appreciate the light so much more if you’ve seen a little dark.

“Tonight, the foxes hunt the hounds.”

This appeals to anyone who feels like the odds are stacked against them. It serves as a reminder that we can turn things around and take control of the situation. The underdog in all of us can find a little comfort knowing we don’t have to just sit back and accept fate. Change it. Challenge it. Blaze your own trail.

“And sugar, we’re going down swingin’.”

More than anything, I think the people of my generation are a bunch of fighters. We’re not going to let the world stop us from changing it for the best. We’re not going to lie down and accept what’s handed to us. We will fight for what we believe in—-and we’ll succeed.

After a three year hiatus, the day has come that no Fall Out Boy fan expected: a reunion and a new album. What does this mean for the scene? Who knows. Will they save rock and roll? I don’t think that was their intent. I think they wanted to make an album on their terms and timeframe, to keep being authentic to themselves. That’s speculation, but what I know for sure is this: this reunion and album brings a little hope for all of us who held these records close to our hearts. And so, as I type this, I find myself in a backseat on my way back from Pittsburgh where I saw them for the second time this week.

Fall Out Boy will be back in Cleveland on September 11^th. Grab your tickets and meet me in the pit.

real-lybeautiful: Be thankful for the wonderful things your...

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 11:11:29 -0500

real-lybeautiful:

Be thankful for the wonderful things your body does for you :)

xox

BE BRAVE! JOIN THE BODY PEACE REVOLUTION!

“Every girl is expected to have caucasian blue eyes, full...

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 19:21:14 -0500

“Every girl is expected to have caucasian blue eyes, full Spanish lips, a classic button nose, hairless Asian skin with a California tan, a Jamaican dance hall ass, long Swedish legs, small Japanese feet, the abs of a lesbian gym owner, the hips of a nine-year-old boy, the arms of Michelle Obama and doll tits. This is why everyone is struggling.”

-Tina Fey

Thank you, Ms. Fey.

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I wamt to live here.

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 12:01:56 -0500

I wamt to live here.

tylerknott: If I quiet my breath long enough, I can hear you...

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 17:03:15 -0500

tylerknott:

If I quiet my breath long enough, I can hear you whispering underneath it. I can hear you, strained voice traveling from your lips to my ears, the distance it did not wish to travel. Too far, it says, much too far, it gasps. Can you hear me, the good morning smile carried on my first thought upon waking? Did it make it to you?

Marbled Sunset Dark Stormy Clouds (by TylerKnott)

You are NOT your diagnosis.

Wed, 05 Dec 2012 10:11:51 -0500

recoveryisbeautiful:

You are not your eating disorder, your mood disorder, your personality disorder.
You are not your past, your struggles, your scars.

You are more than all of that, more than just a label.

Student, daughter, son, mother, father, volunteer, cook, dancer, artist, friend, sibling, niece, nephew, determined, motivated, supportive, role model, ect….

Look past your diagnosis- who are you?

dingyfeathers: A NYC Taxi driver wrote: I arrived at the...

Tue, 27 Nov 2012 23:10:56 -0500

dingyfeathers:

A NYC Taxi driver wrote:

I arrived at the address and honked the horn. After waiting a few minutes I honked again. Since this was going to be my last ride of my shift I thought about just driving away, but instead I put the car in park and walked up to the door and knocked.. ‘Just a minute’, answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor.

After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90’s stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940’s movie.

By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets.

There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard
box filled with photos and glassware.

‘Would you carry my bag out to the car?’ she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman.

She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb.

She kept thanking me for my kindness. ‘It’s nothing’, I told her.. ‘I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother to be treated.’

‘Oh, you’re such a good boy, she said. When we got in the cab, she gave me an address and then asked, ‘Could you drive
through downtown?’

‘It’s not the shortest way,’ I answered quickly..

‘Oh, I don’t mind,’ she said. ‘I’m in no hurry. I’m on my way to a hospice.

I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. ‘I don’t have any family left,’ she continued in a soft voice..’The doctor says I don’t have very long.’ I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.

‘What route would you like me to take?’ I asked.

For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator.

We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.

Sometimes she’d ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.

As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, ‘I’m tired.Let’s go now’.
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.

Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move.
They must have been expecting her.

I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.

‘How much do I owe you?’ She asked, reaching into her purse.

‘Nothing,’ I said

‘You have to make a living,’ she answered.

‘There are other passengers,’ I responded.

Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug.She held onto me tightly.

‘You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,’ she said. ‘Thank you.’

I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light.. Behind me, a door shut.It was the sound of the closing of a life..

I didn’t pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought. For the rest of that day,I could hardly talk.What if that woman had gotten an angry driver,or one who was impatient to end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?

On a quick review, I don’t think that I have done anything more important in my life.

We’re conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.

But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.

via

Homestead Survival

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The Sound That Ends The World

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:26:40 -0500

officialiwrotethisforyou:

I’m only quiet because I’m worried that if you push me too far, one day I will open my mouth and I will scream so loudly, it will shatter and break the whole world.

sierrademulder: Love, Forgive Me by Sierra DeMulder

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 11:13:35 -0500

sierrademulder:

Love, Forgive Me by Sierra DeMulder

sierrademulder: Love, Forgive Me by Sierra DeMulder

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 11:13:14 -0500

sierrademulder:

Love, Forgive Me by Sierra DeMulder

"Will you kiss these scars? Will you find me beautiful despite all these cracks?"

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 11:11:33 -0500

“Will you kiss these scars?
Will you find me beautiful
despite all these cracks?”

- Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

it’s the little things.

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 20:15:50 -0500

it’s the little things.

praisegodstiel: how soon in a friendship can you start calling them a motherfucker

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 23:26:08 -0500

praisegodstiel:

how soon in a friendship can you start calling them a motherfucker

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Mon, 12 Nov 2012 23:21:00 -0500

oh, hey, this woman is my hero. and she’s adorable.

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 23:16:57 -0500

oh, hey, this woman is my hero.
and she’s adorable.

let’s live here. just you & I. perhaps the cat, too.

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 22:50:42 -0500

let’s live here. just you & I. perhaps the cat, too.

mermaid-tails: can i just have this dog? he looks like a...

Sun, 11 Nov 2012 01:49:42 -0500

mermaid-tails:

can i just have this dog? he looks like a friggen teddy bear!

have snuggles, will travel. Gimme this pup!